Just like that, from a million miles an hour to fast asleep in a nanosecond, I wanted so badly to lie with her, like in those movies, not even have sex, just sleep together in the most innocent sense of the phrase, but I lacked courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my dorm and slumped on the bottom bunk thinking; if people are rain, I was drizzle and she, was a hurricane.