When I was little, I was bullied. When I was a teen, I was ignored. Now, I'm the last option: the back-up; the safety net. I'm always there for them, but they're never there for me. For most of our interactions they ask where our other friends are, or could I help with something. It seemed our friendship would last forever, but after 4 years, it's degrading. I'm being used. The way out seems clear but I cannot escape the grasp of my depression; my social anxiety; always wanting to blame myself.