When I would see that stuff on the news, I'd shut it off, 'cause it was just too horrible to think. But I would always think, how do they wake up every day? I mean, how do they breathe, honey? But you do wake up. And for just a second, you forget. And then... oh. You remember. And it's like getting that call again and again, every time. You don't get to stop waking up. You have to keep on being a parent, even though you don't get to have a child anymore.