To me, life is an experience, just like anything else. It keeps going on, even in those moments when I wish for time to stop and weep silently into a pillow. But I do believe that your past experiences shape a lot of what you would get later out of your life. I feel like that I didn't have much of a childhood to begin with, so my life feels devoid of passions and just overall super boring right now. I'm still searching for 'that one thing' that's going to keep me motivated and make each day worth living again, but with more responsibilities and less free time as I get older, I don't know if I'll ever be able to find it. I'm afraid I'll just waste my life ruin my one chance at contributing to this world.

sorry that turned into a rant, my 2am brain desperately needs more sleep rn