No reason to feel guilty because you are feeling down! It's healthy to feel down once in awhile. I won't give you the BS "everything happens for a reason" speal, because I don't believe in that (Nor do I know how to spell speal, if that's even a real word?). Quite frankly, of course everything happens for a reason, lol! However, what I can tell you is that if something happened that made you upset, the best thing you can do is try to find the positive in the negative and keep looking forward. Oh and always smile when you can, it's good for your brain. Easier said than done, but you can do it, never doubt yourself!

I've been feeling kinda down lately, and guilty because I don't really have a reason to be. I know this section is supposed to be to discussed typing-related subjects, but typing helps me relaz a little. Anyways, no one has to reply.

I have a reply. And of course this might not be the most helpful forum for some emotional turmoil, but since you put it out there I feel compelled to ask what's going on? I have a degree in Psychology. I'm currently at a job that does not allow any social media at work, but I'm a receptionist stuck at a desk answering phones. So maybe I can help cure your state of mind while you help me cure my time sitting just waiting on the phone to ring. Maybe you are down because of Financial problems? Relationship problems? Work related stress? or home life not so Happy? Tell me what's going on and maybe I can help with some insight into what you can do to help you. Happiness is an inside job, so some of us just need to find the right tools that help "Fix" what is bugging us. IT MAKES A WORLD of a difference to seek help and counseling. Which I have done for my own "happiness or lack of" issues, and my tool box was just recently refilled last year with new things like setting healthy boundaries, speaking up for myself when I feel used or neglected, and I'm a 39 year old female. We are never too old to learn new ways to improve our lives. And although this is for typing, YOU ARE learning to "Journal" as you write back. So it's like killing two birds with one stone. So FIRE away....unlike the others, I heard you loud and clear. So talk to me.

I suck at life. its to hard but I guess ill keep going

How you doing today

it's Ok you don't suck

It's Ok I know I feel like that too

There's just been a lot of stuff going on... and I've had people that are close to me telling me things about myself that I didn't know. For example, I've been manipulating my family without meaning to, and it's putting a strain on them. I've been thinking a lot about a traumatic experience that happened a year ago, and I used that as a reason to start making bad decisions. Funnily enough, an hour after I posted that first message I got suspended for twenty days because I brought alcohol to school. One of my closest friends was brought into it because a teacher saw me share it with them, and she could have gotten in huge trouble. Her parents told her we can no longer be friends because of it, so now I'm worse off than before. I'm really angry with myself, because I knew it was a bad idea and I did it anyways.

Everyone I know is really disappointed in me, especially my parents. They don't trust me anymore, and I'm not allowed to be alone. Because of the thing that happened a year ago, I cut off contact with my mother. The court said I have to see her two hours every month, and I'm caught between still being furious with her and missing who I used to think she was. She's a completely different person to me now, and she doesn't understand why I'm so angry with her.

I've a similar relationship with a relative - the scenario is probably different from yours but I will never trust them again nor likely ever forgive them completely. Anger and bitterness feel good for a while, but they're caustic and can eat you alive from the inside. The betrayal taints even the good memories, and ultimately you're left with nothing but those negative emotions. The only benefit is when you use such feelings as an impetus to push beyond your limits as a human, otherwise it's too easy to just let it fester. One of the reasons I try to improve my wpm, gives an outlet for pent-up frustration and acts as a feedback-loop for mental/emotional regulation. It's hard to type quickly if you're emotionally distraught.

Hey Danny,
Your story is quite interesting.
May I ask, since you knew it was a bad idea to bring alcohol to school then why did you do it?

I want to say that I just wanted to do something rebellious, but in all honesty I don't know.

Oh, I see. The thing with rebellion is that it always comes with a price. You need to make sure the prize is worthy of the cost. Rebellion is not an option, it is the man's last resort.

In the mean time, I suggest you to try world domination as an alternative. I believe it το be quite more fun.

Its fine! I don't have parents. I have been feeling the same way. My dad died when I was like 1 and my mother ran from my 12 siblings