Is suicide that bad? I already feel like I am just a walking corpse in this world, just sucking oxygen away from the people who can actually feel something. I know it's wrong to consider, I'm not going to do it. I just don't feel like it should be a shameful feeling for the people who are already here, rotting away like a forgotten tomato.
It's not shameful to be broken down by a world built to do so. Choosing to live every day, despite the horrors and hardships, is an act of bravery. I hope things improve for you in whatever way you wish and that you continue to choose to stay.